something profound..wanting to feel something profound...the enlightenment... which mikeC explains is no different than learning to ride a bike....interestingly....in my life time....i have known hundreds of people who have learned to ride bikes...but i have been in the presence of only one...only one enlightened being.... an incredible experience i might add...... so if the two are equally the same...then why such a discrepancy... perhaps it is...one enlightened being is the same as hundreds and hundreds...maybe even thousands of people... doing something much much less thoughtful....something that requires very little focus... collectively they become one ginormous profound being.... one = thousands and thousands.... perhaps it is... mikeC is right..... no matter what we do today....has no impact....this is our one and only...beginning and final destination.... we are truly nothing more than matter....dust particles... a science project... that everything is nothing.... we are nothing....
am i stupid... or something...am i just some fucked up person.... who doesn't get it... it's not that i refuse...to believe this... it's just...it is incomplete...it doesn't make any sense ....in my mind.... my heart....perhaps it is until you have had near death experiences...until you have experienced the impossible...then perhaps you cannot see beyond...that which limits you... that which keeps you...bound to your skin....to your science.... the need to free yourself of the physical self.... seems to me...no different than that of spirit....of love...of the true essence of what and why we exist in the first place....
if it is....this is it...then why bother... why bother to do shit... why not just sit around and do nothing.... why try and make a difference for our children...why bother to save the planet... or save the dying species.... because it just doesn't matter.... we are nothing...and within that nothingness...is emptiness....
i suppose we all have to live and believe that which brings us comfort... i can say...i choose to believe...there is something more...but it's not a choice...for me... i do understand the science of things... that's easy... it's much more difficult to believe or see outside of our physical self... to see beyond that which we hold onto... bottom line...is love... if i did have a choice....it would be love... over nothingness...emptiness... it would be....to believe...that i didn't just get born one day... give birth to my sons...then we just die... and that's that...
i've always...wondered how people can be so finite...that they don't feel or see the possibilities... that there is so much more than the physical self....however i am starting to understand...why... it's like a shield...a protection... that to believe there is more... is much to painful... it is much to freeing... it is.... they limit themselves to a life of nothing... of emptiness.... to protect themselves...
okay...now i'm really confused....
on a better note....today is the ride4warmth bike race.... hoping for a good show of riders racers...and spectators....
so on this day...i give thanks for all those who take time out of their day...to make a difference in the lives of others.... i give thanks for my sons...and my family and friends...for this amazing holiday season... for all the beauty and wonder in my life... thank you for the christmas tree...i dream of... for the abundance...in my life...for the new heater i need to keep my house warm... thank you for this incredible day...filled with magic and miracles.... thank you...for all the love and light...that surrounds me..that fills me up with hope...
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Here's what I mean when I say enlightenment is like learning to ride a bike.
I could find someone who has never ridden a bicycle and I could tell them how to do it. I could say, "Look, step over this bar in the middle, put your hands on the grips and your feet on the pedals. Then, whichever pedal is the highest, push down on that one with your foot to go forward."
Those instructions would be accurate, but the first time the person did it, he or she would fall. But eventually, if this person kept with it, he or she would find themselves successfully riding.
There's something that has to happen there that goes beyond the straightforward explanation, verbal or written, of how to ride a bicycle - some moment of satori where the student goes from intellectually knowing the process of riding a bike to actually riding a bike.
I think the same thing is true of enlightenment. But a lot of people don't get to that point because they simply have no desire to. It's as if you told them how to ride a bike and they said, "Well, thanks for the information, but I've got my car right here."
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