Sunday, January 18, 2009

as i read through

other peoples blogs... feeling a bit like snooping...spying into the lives of friends...acquaintances and some i have never met... learning a lot.... i won't mention names....but are some men really that stupid regarding women... do they really not get women at all... from what i've read...apparently not.... as a woman... i have even tried to explain to men.... the way women think....do they listen? nope...they seem to think they know...more about women than women know about women... women however...... don't make this same claim....assumption...of all knowing regarding men.... my favorite is.... the men...who take everything a woman says...and personalize it... somehow... they make it all about them... or completely misinterpret.... again...all about themselves.... not all men are like this....but there are plenty who are....
a little secret...guys... 95% of communication...is NOT the spoken word...

on another note... i spent most of the day with mikeC... running errands... after a shopping spree at michael's....we decided to have a mimosa at sauced...sit on the patio and soak up the afternoon sunshine.... joining daniel at his table.....eventually johnC and johnM arrived.... always.. entertaining... johnC is on a short leash these days....having an extremely controlling wife... pregnant wife... johnM....is having a wild fling with a rather public just divorced...claiming she's gay...girl next door ... daniel...is single...and looking... later in the evening we all met up again... to have a beer.... johnC...is already in trouble....the conversation keeps going back to johnM's fling....geno is now seeing his ex-wife... while he wraps his arm around us....he looks at me...saying....kelley...everyone is in love but you... like he was proud of this...or something... true i said.... i'm not in love..... does not being in love discredit me somehow... does it make me less because i have no love....? sure... i love being in love... but... i don't like the part...where you have to answer to someone...all the time....i get to do things.... that "in lovers"...don't... no one screaming on the phone "you're locked out of the house" for having fun with your friends...innocent fun...(this happened last night) i don't have to sneak around or...pretend i'm somewhere when i'm not... my friends aren't getting the repeated text messages...."where is she".... holy shit.. how messed up is that.... when love finds me...i will embrace it with all my heart...but for now.... i have so much in my life that brings me great joy...love and friendship.... and well.... perhaps....it's just not in the cards for me a this point in my life.... who knows....maybe it is....just around the corner...love is waiting for me.... until then.... i will enjoy the freedom... of being me....

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