magnificant obession

with jane wyman and rock hudson is on right now...what a beautiful film..... jane is a blind widow...all because of rock... complete mess... they fall in love...oh so sweet.... my favorite part of older films are the clothes.... the folds and pleats in the fabrics... nothing today...compares to the gowns and dresses they used to wear...!!!

yesterday...was one of those days...when everything went so beautifully... i had an early lunch with mikeC... having only a small salad...then meeting an old friend...aka ex ex ex ex b/f...from years ago... we chatted and chatted...about so many things....he is one of the few people in my life that actually knows my family... my ex husband....my sons.... having insight as to my family dynamic... we spent...3 or so hours at mcnellies in midtown.... first time for me... i rarely venture beyond the paseo or VZD's these days.... staying within my comfort zone....however the paseo has lost its luster.... with the exception of a warm afternoon sitting on the patio at sauced.... !!!

i had the coolest experience last night..... retail therapy....how much fun is that...!!! holy shit i had no idea....how good it could feel to get something new....i have imagined this for sometime.... but wow...it was much more than i dreamed... today...i will dress in something... brand spanking new... and feel like a princess....all day long...!!! i didn't try anything on while shopping....when the sales person would say... just try it on...i whispered...i'm not wearing panties...so better not...they would nod...and smile...almost thanking me with their eyes... for the honesty.... when i got home...i played dress up.... everything fit...perfectly... oh i'm so excited... there is something to be said for retail therapy...

oh no....jane's in the hospital......rock just arrived...she's been there for a month now...he had no idea.... she's not looking good... he's now checking her medical records... not a stroke...thank goodness.... she's mumbling something....what...what is she saying... she's pale.... it's bleak.... oh...can rock save her...can he.....

the love....of life.... it seems everyone around me...is falling in love... how fun... perhaps... love will shine upon me today... love....success....wealth...the other night while mike and i sat for 4 or 5 hours...drinking wine at VZ's.... a long time friend was there...celebrating her sons 25 birthday... she came over...to visit for a moment....looking at my hands....holding them in hers...reading the lines.... my right hand...she announced...."travel"...my left..."money".... checking again....she says...i don't see marriage.... pushing my hands a way...then double checking nope no marriage... two outta three's not bad....

he did it...rock performed the surgery...she's alive...he's by her side...kneeling...holding her hand...kissing it ever so lightly...refusing to leave her.... the nurse is making coffee....i have a feeling it's gonna be a really long night....